It’s been days since I lost the love of my life, it was three years full of love, understanding and one of the most fascinating learnings I could remember in my heart and I’d like to share it with you today, because before we split up, we went forever.
People experience love in different ways. Ours is the one that goes very fast, that leads us not to stop to think, think and feel. It is true that our love was unique, the one that we usually live in movies and soap operas. too good to be true And that’s what we both think.
- As the days went by.
- We both grew up feeling full of beauty and purity.
- We were blinded by the thrill of finding something so precious and unique.
- That feeling led us never to wonder if we were doing things right among ourselves.
- Whether we were really for each other or compatible.
- This way we could never value what we had and that’s why abandonment hurts more.
“I love you to love you and not to be loved, for nothing pleases me as much as to see you happy?”
We were able to fly and be forever. Every time we met we felt the hugs, kisses and minutes of our love as the first time, flooded our hearts and filled us with inner fullness, we were invincible and nothing could break that magic.
With one glance I felt like we’d be together for life. When I met him, in just a few hours, we started a journey without separating anymore. Sometimes I think this may have been our mistake: neglecting what we had so much, not severing at every moment and not getting to know each other more deeply.
It is true that when you find yourser at such a perfect time, nothing matters to you, I was sure that we were united by a unique and magical bond, such an incredible union that it made me want to follow him everywhere, and so was he. With this feeling we would build our lives without worrying about anything else and we started our story at full speed.
So much so that we bumped into our own reality, we didn’t know each other well enough and the time alone started to hurt, so we didn’t know how to empathize and understand each other, learn along the way. The mistake led us not to know how to do it.
And then it happened. It was then that we realized that we were not as much for each other as we thought and thought, I just realized that it was not me who had to go with him for the rest of his life, or maybe it was mine.
The pain of feeling that I didn’t know how to please him, that we weren’t compatible, or that we were so different, just made us not understand each other, flooded us with negative emotions that no longer had a positive side. All this has led us not to want to be so close to each other, either physically or internally, we thought that our bodies were just what united us, our hearts no longer felt this need, the need to shine together, full of peace.
The sadness we felt over many days became immense, creating a barrier full of depth and that separated us. We no longer dreamed of a life together and our desires began to take different paths, I felt very empty. Speed was our executioner, accelerating our time and our love. A relationship that expired and led me to surrender, not to keep trying. Not to believe that he was leaving too, that our fairy tale and our precious story would end.
They say cultivating love is the easiest thing to do in our lives, but I didn’t know how to do it, I gave up and I was a coward, I let it fly and he let me fly. But we kept looking up at the sky because I knew our love was infinite.
I’m sure somewhere else, in another life or maybe in another body. We’ll see each other again and we’ll really love each other. Learn together, understand, empathete, enjoy, and share a friendship and something else. Always or not.
I wish you all the best. You’ll always be in my heart.