You may have already felt sad, unmotivated and powerless, for no apparent reason, maybe in your life everything is more or less fine, you have a job that allows you to live, a couple, a home, but something inside is wrong. This sadness that extrapolates and prevents you from getting out of bed for no apparent reason is known as endogenous depression or melancholy depression.
This depression that arises from within, that barely lets you breathe, that makes you feel that you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, is very difficult to explain, there is nothing wrong with the eyes of the people around you, but no you can fight that feeling that exhausts you and does not want to do anything.
- When you don’t see the chains that tie you to bed.
- When pain permeates your body but there are no wounds that talk about it.
- Then it becomes harder for the world to understand you.
- Depression doesn’t understand the reasons.
- But it does include guilt.
- Lack of motivation and lack of pleasure or desire to live.
Sadness in the soul may have no explanation, but that doesn’t mean it hurts less, it’s an invisible phrase, hard to put into words, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.
The pain I feel is invisible to the eyes because there are no wounds that explain how I feel, sometimes it’s even hard to put into words what I’m going through, depression comes and invades me, preventing me from thinking about all the good things. The world becomes a hostile place and with every move it reminds me how useless I feel.
There is nothing that gives me hope, everything good is diluted as tears in the rain and prevent me from seeing beyond the darkness in which I am immersed, I have no strength and it is difficult to rest because my thoughts prevent me from falling asleep at night.
What I don’t think are the healthiest things in the world, I think I’m a con man, a useless person who doesn’t do anything right, that the future doesn’t hold me hopeful because I’m worthless and the world is a dark place that constantly threatens me by proving that I’m worth little. Sometimes I even thought about ending all my suffering, but I don’t have the strength to do it and because deep down I know I’m not going to solve anything.
Wrapped in the darkness where depression consumes me, I become my worst tyrant, hate myself and hurt myself.
But worst of all, I know the key to feeling better is with me, depression prevents me from seeing that I have to ask for help because it’s a disease that hits me, just as it prevents me from understanding this, even if it’s hard. more than I can prove, I have to put my share to move again and start healing.
Besides, as much as you, with all your love in the world, would like to help me, this overprotective attitude hurts me more than well. Don’t I need pity or advice like “if I were you” or?I understand what you’re going through, but what??
You can’t help everyone, but everyone can help someone, and sometimes that someone is yourself.
What I need is that you are understanding, not overprotective, that you have an open attitude and try to understand my feelings, encouraging me to seek professional help, not to act as a psychologist without being a psychologist, depression is a serious disease and even if you do not understand the reason, you do not need to consume it gradually in the dark.
Light comes not from a friend’s advice, but from proper treatment. Depression is not cured with pills because it is the result of a combination of genetic, biochemical and psychological factors, so its treatment should cover all its aspects.