I could tell you many things, my love, but today I speak to you of silence, I mean and I am centered on this anguish that I carry with me since the day I said goodbye to you, although today I understand the true meaning of love.
Each one went his way, having crossed this line called life. I feel alone No way! I have never felt lonely since the day I first found the true meaning of love. Since the summer afternoon when I met you on this path that you called “Path to happiness for lovers. ” I never fully understood the connotation you liked to give to our simplest things, and I say “ours” because, since that afternoon when you asked me if I wanted to go with you on a unique and memorable adventure, everything mine has become yours. too. Fights, anger, pain, joys, smiles, laughter, a busy life that breathes everything good, everything that makes us feel good. Even on my skin I can feel your hands and run through my hair, tired and weathered from footprints made by mistake. Don’t smile with you. With you he laughed out loud and woke up even the most discreet lovers in a forbidden encounter. There weren’t eight with you. It was the eighties. There was no heat. Everything was hot or cold with you, without compromise; It was whole, of almost raw intensity, but mixed with a touch of tenderness and sweet honey, with a scent of vanilla and chocolate, as Cinderella once told us, do you remember?
- I could tell you a lot of things.
- My love.
- But I’ll keep my thoughts.
- I’ll keep all those words that ring in my ears and look like snowflakes in the middle of a mountain on a sunny day.
- They collapse and come to kiss me in the face like you did before I fell asleep.
- Your kiss was always unexpected and timelessly sweet.
- But knowing me little by little.
- Will silence be my companion.
- Will it be my wine on lonely nights.
- Will it be my book about the winters?It’s just going to be him and me.
- We’ll talk about the whole nights.
- Tell you all the feeling I have inside this heavy.
- Tight heart.
- From the day you took my hand and said.
- “One day.
- My love!You’ll always stay with me.
- “.
I couldn’t tell you anything. You just got a hug from me, wrapped in a smile, after thinking it was just a bad joke.
You took me for a walk, as always on a Sunday afternoon, to the usual place, but this time you took a black rose with us, your breathing was laborious, your eyes didn’t light up the way and your smile wasn’t as transparent as you used to feel something annoying inside. My heart guessed something different, but I couldn’t explain what it would be. I felt breathless and wanting to tell you to get out of there!
What’s going on? You’re not well You’re not smiling at me with your best version. Your smile is not the same! I want to go. I don’t like this place. Do I shudder?! I asked you.
? I’m not a better version, as you think I am. ? You answered me with an embarrassed smile, as the sun looms through the clouds on autumn mornings. You gave me the black rose. You know I love black roses. It’s dried up ever since, and it’s inside the book you gave me the day we celebrated 6 years of love together. It dried up, you know, just as my tears dried up. I cried so many times without realizing the reason for such farewell, without understanding the end of an almost perfect love, a mixture of carnal and platonic in which the bodies, always united, made the sky and the sky tremble. earth, and souls were always together as if it were your first date!I called it a mental connection, remember? You always smiled when I said that, you kissed me on the forehead and looked at me like no man ever looked at me. It was a sweet look of admiration, mixed with the feeling that I would be your best treasure and that’s what I felt!
I could have looked for you during those 15 years of absence. I could have replaced you with the men who loved me, some for who I am, others for my body, few have crossed my cold sheets of love, there are some to whom I have given myself for an eternity of one night, but I have never and never have managed to replace you, I have never been able to feel with a man what I felt with you, the true perfection of love, being completely and completely in an eternity that would last a lifetime. of you again, without being in my head (even this morning I asked you if you wanted a coffee, as I did every morning before leaving home, do you think?) I never knew about this special man who made me feel like the special woman of all the most special ones, but also the one that left me one Sunday afternoon and said: “One day, my love!”
You have made me discredit the noblest feeling of this lifeguard, at the top of all feelings!After all, what was the meaning of love?I stopped believing in him for a while, but I know he exists and controls everything. I always believe that love breaks walls and builds bridges, that love can do anything!I’m not playing, as you can see.
And today you hit me in the window, like you’re still there and you’re just asking questions:
? I love it, I’m here. Everything is fine?
? It’s good, but I’m not here for you anymore!Am I not for us!? I answer you with a murky look, but lightly in the soul.
I was serene and happy! I realized, at the time, the strength I had in me and that I never thought I had, that the great woman I had been before was always with me, it was me, you know.
I realized that I loved you with all my might throughout my life, I realized that you were a priority for a while, but most of all, I realized that I was and I am my true priority!
That the true meaning of love is that I carry it with me, I am myself in the clearest sense of the word!
Love is good, yes! I’m here, but for me, not for us!
I still love you. I think I will love you forever, until the day I turn a blind eye to this world and only then will I forget that one day we exist, but that doesn’t excuse everything!This won’t let me forget how you left me adrift. , in this lifeguard, where my path was full of ties and knot ties and you didn’t have here to help me untangle. None of them, did you hear it right??You almost drowned me in a loop made of hot air and dust!You almost took me with you on Sunday afternoon, when the sky went dark and my body froze for years.
But today? I’m so yours today, but I completely belong. You know what that means? That today I am the one who say to you: “Until any day, love. You will be and always be in me. “