You’re some kind of pain I don’t want to face. You are the emotional wound created by difficulties and fueled by abuse. You are disappointment, betrayal, injustice, humiliation and abandonment.
I try to escape and not look at you, because the only thing that relieves me is the illusion of normality, I close my eyes because I don’t want to live hurt, but I’m tired of saying and thinking that everything is okay.
- I smile when I don’t want to and try to think that life is beautiful.
- But pretending is very tired and frustrating.
- There’s nothing more painful than pretending everything’s okay when something inside hurts.
When this happens, we entered a spiral that absorbs and squeezes our souls, often felt my heart ripped out and hope killed, so I decided to close the wound I have left.
This suffering is the work of a criminal. A criminal who broke my heart, danced to my needs, took advantage of my innocence and fed my worries with cruelty. A thief who, after the robbery, handed over my strength.
When you have resentment, you’re tied to that person or situation because of a stronger emotional connection than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve this bond and free onese year.
? Catherine Ponder?
I was so afraid to fly with broken wings that I stopped trying to understand that part of me that was crying so much, I made my body my soul’s grave and started sinking without any resistance.
However, there is nothing like rocking bottom to gain momentum, I realized that trying to escape what tormented me perpetuated and aggravated my problems and, above all, destroyed my emotions.
I realized that I could not be wrong, that if something hurts you, you cannot say that everything is well; feeling the pains of life freely is the best solution.
I understood that pain is only the first stage of suffering and I still have time to heal myself before the damage becomes irreparable. Pain is a call for attention that our mind uses to warn us that something is wrong.
Usually, the blows surprise us and cause us so much suffering that we try to avoid them by becoming specialists to escape the pains of life, for example, it happens to us when we are on the verge of separation, of course that the separation is getting closer and closer, but we still believe that everything will be solved.
This type of masochistic behavior leads us to develop a tolerance to excessive pain Do we believe that we do not fail?Our status as person/partner/friend/woman/man/father/mother, etc. , We must sacrifice ourselves and therefore suffer.
In doing so, we try to justify our tendency to total and unrestricted abandonment, through which we try to make sense of our behaviors and even our lives.
Thus, when we go through a painful period, we unconsciously try to continue as if nothing, however, with this attitude, we only feel more pain, which allows it to take root in us.
In this way, the pain becomes stronger, reaching our most vital feelings and emotions, that is, it is impossible to escape suffering and the only way to make it disappear is to live it until it runs out.