I never thought I’d have a first time with the psychologist, besides, I never cared about what the psychologists’ work was or what good therapy could do for me, but one day everything changed. I started to feel like something was wrong with me and I really couldn’t explain why.
I began to lose motivation and joy over the things I loved, it was getting harder and harder to get out of bed and get out of bed, although when I left I felt better, it was wanting and not being able to, a strange feeling that made me think that maybe something in my mental health wasn’t working.
- Over time and nothing has changed or improved in me.
- I encouraged myself to go to a psychologist.
- I didn’t know what to expect.
- What to say or how to start when I got to his office.
- I was very nervous and reluctant.
- At the same time.
- Once I saw the results.
- I can say that it was worth it and that it was not as I expected.
- It was different.
“Everyone talks about the mind without hesitation, but they are perplexed when asked to define it. -B. F. Skinner-
My first time in the psychologist started asking me why I was asking for help and it was something that scared me because I couldn’t explain it, as I said before, I was just in a bad position, but I couldn’t give reasons or words to explain my discomfort. And contrary to what I thought, talking to him was very simple.
A psychologist won’t tell you what you want to hear, he’ll tell you the truth, even if it hurts.
She knew how to help me put words about my discomfort, she didn’t make me feel lonely or helpless, but she didn’t pamper me in such a way that she would tell me what she wanted to hear, she just taught me to analyze and work on what didn’t work, to be aware of my flaws, but also to my potential.
“Your life is not so determined by what life gives you, but by your attitude toward life; not so much about what’s happening to you, but because of the way your mind sees what’s going on. -Kahil Gibran-
But we weren’t just talking. We agreed from the beginning, from the first visit, that there was a common goal: to leave behind the feeling of discomfort that had led me to this first time in the psychologist, this may be the most difficult part of therapy, because you are not a passive entity that receives the magic solution to your problems, but you realize that they can change , grow or disappear, depending on the point of view you observe and what you do, directly or indirectly, with them.
And that’s when you realize that the magic of words doesn’t exist. This change sometimes costs much more than enduring the same suffering that led you to consult the psychologist. Even when you’re in the process, you might want to change your self. -idea and scare you, but the goal is not to feel good in the short term, but to work for a change that makes you feel good. long-term.
“The mission of psychology is to give us a totally different idea of the things we know most. -Paul Valéry-
A good psychologist will help you free yourself from guilt, but it will also force you to take responsibility for your discomfort.
Once therapy has started and the changes are in place, not everything is easy, many times, as I was already aware of my problems, I tried to label them, labels that don’t always match what my psychologist told me.
This made me suspicious because I believe that no one can know himself better than the person himself, but then I realized that since no one can know me better than me, I specialized in knowledge of my strengths and mental mechanisms, as my psychologist did. It was pretty simple, but at first glance it slipped away. You can also be a master in self-deception.
This deception leads us to be very cruel or very good to ourselves, and prevents us from seeing very clearly our own reality, often makes us sink into the guilt of feeling what we feel or being who we are simply because we feel bad.
Therapy itself is a mirror, it teaches you to look like you are, not how you’d like to be or how you blame yourself for being. My first time in the office helped me get rid of the guilt of not using all my energy. in failed challenges In that regard, it also helped me to take responsibility for the unrest resulting from this guilt.
For all these reasons it was worth my first time in the psychologist, now I am stronger, I have more resources and my worldview is tighter, now I know that I am not perfect, I even had some affection for these imperfections That used to only cause me frustration. I can face life and I can fail, but all this does not weaken me, but strengthens my motivation to continue growing.
The truth is that I am still afraid, but they no longer stay in my thoughts or stop me, they no longer do what they want with me, because I have enough support points to undo many knots that made me feel like a prisoner.