Loneliness is great to make us anxious when we ask ourselves, “What would you do?”He’s bad as a demon when you finally want to talk and when doubts accumulate; when we want to put into words what we need, aspire or desire, our foolish whims, and there is no one around. We call someone because neither the sofa, nor the blanket, nor the ice, which are too cold, serve as Lifeline We have tried all these options, but do not eliminate any of our questions.
Then we look at the contact list on our phone and think about who to call, who to vent to. When the names appear, the answers also appear. In most cases we can guess what these people will say, in others we know immediately that they will not be present, that they will not have time to share a hot coffee or that they will listen to us while they put on their clothes. the clothesline.
- I’m talking to you to warm me up.
- To understand that I’m going through a bad time.
- So you know I’m very angry.
- A accumulated courage that makes me cry in secret and shrink between the leaves in full sun.
- I don’t need you to tell me you warned me.
- I know you are.
- Are you that smart?As it is.
- I would never have gotten to that.
But you don’t have my fears, demons, illusions and personal, non-transferable demands that make you the commander of my life. It’s me, even if I sometimes disallow it and want to throw it all out the window. Don’t think I’m “dumb, ” even though I have a wild character, that doesn’t mean I play with the important things, with them I’m a serious person. I would never have done it if I hadn’t thought it was best for my purpose, even though I found myself in the absurdity that my tears were falling.
I don’t need you to scold me, I already have a cricket talking to me that right now I can’t keep my mouth shut, or subject it to the worst torture, it screams more than my ability to ignore it. Insisting, fearless, tireless, as if to realize it was mine. Don’t laugh either, because it’s not funny. If you think you’re rejecting the problem, you’re wrong: all you do is make me feel more insignificant when I feel small.
I also don’t want to know what you would do for me, it’s not a conclave to look for solutions, at least not before I feel, you sure understand me, that you’ve put yourself in my place and in my situation and that you’re ready to endure the difficulty they impose on you. Then maybe you can help me evaluate the options, but without coming home.
Don’t think I’m going to give you all the reason why I made a mistake in the past, this doesn’t make your judgment more valuable than mine, remember that I haven’t missed the opportunity to assume what happened, or what will happen. . These are independent decisions, and yes, you may see that I’m still wrong, but I’m not with you by any chance?
Give me a hug. It seems that I have to tell you everything, forgive me, this is only a product of my mood, but you can hug me in the same way, at this point it will calm me down a lot, I even leave you, since all My weight is a ballast, that you go home and tell me what worries you, why you are going to kill yourself or if you are hungry. Finally, I’ve got ice cream in the store, okay?