The first step, the first tooth, the first speech, then there is the doll, the bicycle, the first day of school, the first writing, then the reading and so on, we hope, we make the journey of life a constant dream and expectation, so we live trapped in the past or anxious for the future, and never present and focused on the reality of the present.
I think Carlos Drummond had that feeling when he wrote?And now Joseph ??, everything he expected had happened, the party was over, the people are gone, what was left?Then you move on to a new project. There’s nothing wrong with that, having dreams, plans, projects is what drives us on this journey of life, the big problem is when we live only dreams, when we’re so focused on top of the mountain that we lose all the way. to get there.
- We don’t feel the wind hitting our faces.
- We don’t hear the birds singing.
- We didn’t look at the flower that was in the middle of this rock.
- Among the stones.
- We lost all this because we can’t wait for the top.
- Of the mountain.
- To reach the top to see what there is.
- We do not see the beautiful walk that happens during the tour.
It reminds me of when I was a kid and I was waiting for Christmas all year round, and since it took so long, it was like years instead of months, Christmas came and I loved spending the night waiting for Santa Claus, after all he went through a little depression, typical of the end of the party, and came the thought: “It happened so fast. “
And so were the years of waiting for parties, classes, friendships, loves, dreams, until the day I managed to approve and withdraw my driver’s license, it was such a great joy, after so much class, so much sweat in my hands, So many shaky legs, and came the day of seeking the dedication that I have spent in the last few months and with that in my hands , the depression came to me and I thought: and now?What am I going to do with her? I didn’t have a car, I needed to borrow it from my mother, I had nowhere else to go because I was always with my boyfriend who had his own car. Achieving this ideal.
I am not against dreams, projects, idealizations, on the contrary, I firmly believe in the possibility of dreamers, I also believe that the world is a world and that all the things that exist have happened at the hands of a dreamer who has been called crazy.
In what I do not believe is in fixing, in this part that suffocates to want so much, that you forget everything now in the name of the long-awaited future, that part that we call ego and want you to live according to a model, that brings anguish and pollutes its essence, is in this part of history where one gets lost, we let ourselves be fooled by the false illusion of reality , when in reality the future is like touching the horizon, you will always have to take another step.
Focusing now is feeling what you’re doing, what the aroma is, what you see, where you set foot, forget about photos and selfies for a moment, record in memory what only she can last, feed the good thoughts of the moments, something beautiful is always happening.
Use the contemplation of moments as the key to the door of now. Meditate, focus your attention on the present. When getting in the car, pay attention to the route, how many times have you returned from work or vice versa in automatic mode?Have you ever turned off the key and thought: how did I get here?in the present, leaving your attention focused on what has already happened and has no way of reproducing, or thinking about this promotion that may never happen.
Life is like a train traveling, the station arrives, new people, new moments, new learnings, passes the station, etc. The important thing is to think about how you want to get to the final station. What do you think will really get you out of all this.
The moments that you have spent without experiencing, or all those intense experiences that you have really felt, each celebration, each look, smile, speech, each moment that you have given yourself to let your soul vibrate in the presence in the present. every minute to live what life offers you now, a good cliché to awaken your mind that is deceived by the ego, that ego that does not let you see that life is present!