Yes, somehow I’m typical. The typical teenager. I’m fifteen years old and I write a diary. What you’re reading today is just a part of it, which of course has a padlock that’s hidden in a place you’ll never find. At least that’s what I hope and that this opportunity doesn’t come when I’m going to pack up, thinking you’re ordering my room, which is just when I feel lost the most.
If you found it, it would be a good reason, certainly the best way to become an infamous mother. Overprotective, involved and unbearable in one word. Besides, I think I’d just stoke your fears, those fears that already make you stay awake for a few nights or wait for me, because yes, in my head I see options that you would rule out.
- When I was little I asked what it came out for.
- What it was for.
- What it was.
- Now.
- For a teenager like me.
- The questions are more uncertain.
- They have to do with me and I stopped asking you because I don’t think I don’t have the answers.
- At least mine.
- So I prefer my friends at this point.
- With them I can share the complicity of not knowing and the excitement of every new discovery.
- If you go back thirty years.
- You’ll understand.
- What I mean.
This is something that amazes me in the elders, how quickly they forget that they also made jokes, fell in love for the first time, pretended to be sick to miss school or had a misunderstanding to arrive later.
The battle for independence led to solving the confrontation between what people expected and what they wanted, and the price that anyone had to pay for either option, in the short or long term. What were you like when you were a teenager?
In addition, if the genes containing this trend have survived, the custom is likely to have some adaptation, allowing everyone to play their part easily. Whether you have your expectations and I am here to break them, it may be the first exercise of the most difficult others that will surely come and I will have to face them. I think if Darwin’s theory were explained to us in this way, there would be fewer people in the world wondering what this man said that’s so important.
You know, when I was little, in this exercise in egocentrism that all children do, I thought the world was a great theater and that people, when they didn’t see them, were preparing for the role they were going to. To test this theory, I’ve often tried to be unpredictable. Although I really wanted a tasty delicacy, I rejected it to see how others behaved when acting unpredictably. My intention was that this kind of big brother?He has finally confessed everything in the face of desperation to see all his projects broken.
In this game of consistency and inconsistency, I ended up missing out several times, more than once a day, hence the changes in my teenage mood, my endurance and my acceptance, I try to put everything into perspective and feel ungrateful to this. feeling that nothing is safe and that there is nowhere to hold on, nothing is foolproof, not even those who have full control of everything, because best friends can fail and you can fail the tests for which you have studied the most. Looking for luck, but it’s more capricious than drops falling from a clear sky.
But the most difficult task to grow has to do with a problem involving the helplessness of my friends and mine as well. I don’t know what else I have to do to be good, accept it Feel loved and respected. It was a question I tenía. vi how it transformed my friends and how it transformed me. Perhaps the first requirement is to have a perfect body, when it develops anarchically and essentially does what it wants and wants. You may want to be tall and eat yogurt, but if genetics decides it’s not that, it won’t be at all. In other words, that’s when you start to understand the hellish torture of high heels.
You start to see how much harder it is to earn someone’s respect when you’re little and when your peers decide you’re overweight or short of books. An approach that fits perfectly with the curves of women that appear in ads: not many, not a few, the right amount.
People who knew you and recognized you now begin to treat you as if something in you sucks and they do it so radically and so often that you start to believe it, that there’s something wrong with you that’s wrong, that it’s not working. Besides, anything you do to correct this seems to draw more attention. Actually, you’re a little clumsy and God didn’t force you to wear high heels.
You’d like to ask if someone knows how to make up for what nature hasn’t given you, or given you too much, but you’ve seen how your friends have failed, and at that point, what you’d least endure in life would be to be more vulnerable, to give an indication that your provocations have some effect on you. If there’s one thing left for you, it’s to make you feel safe. This is another attitude you must have to be good, not only to feel safe, but also to look like yourself. This way, you end up giving the impression that you don’t care about anything.
In this profile that forces the teen to “come back to life,” I also realized that he had to get good grades. Then you’d be happy. I also had to give the impression that it took me a lot of effort, but not much. Hard worker yes, but also smart.
At school, people also don’t like people who don’t get good grades, unless the group interprets it on their own initiative and not because of a lack of skill. If you play the latter, you’re lost. It will be part of the world of the zeros on the left, an easy place to enter and very difficult to get out.
In this sense, 7 and 8 are the best notes, and you don’t have to raise your hand too much or answer each teacher’s questions succinctly, in addition, before answering, it’s worth taking a chance and saying something fun to the colleagues who started the trend, the Influencers, as they are called.
Once, in a classroom, we were taught the normal distribution, it is assumed that many natural distributions correspond to this curve, so there is a higher density in the middle and a lower density at the ends.
I found it very natural, because being in the extremes is always very dangerous, do not express emotions or express them too much, never get angry and never show them forever, so if you want to be a teenager and live in peace, it is best to stay in the middle of this curve, where hiding among so many is easier. A camouflage, as I said before, where to make the kind of someone who cares nothing goes very well.
Here end the pages of my diary that I lost by chance, say all this would embarrass me and that is why I left you writing in the middle of my socks, like a lost sheet in the middle of the order you try to impose. about me, so you can understand a little bit of my struggle to find my own command. A task that is not easy, but at the same time exciting.
And, of course, I love you, what do I never tell you?