This is the word that envelops my soul when I hear your name: heart, a word I don’t use with anyone, let alone when it comes to referring to my feelings, because it’s true that I can’t pretend I love you, or pretend I love you, don’t you like it and don’t want the same thing?
Although my soul is filled with light every time you propose to me, I will never lie saying that it was ever like that, I cannot say that I missed you every moment, every day, in every corner that I turned I would always be there, waiting for me, like I used to do what.
- There are millions of stars that are part of the number of times I’ve died from kissing you.
- Hugging you and wishing you’d feel good about me.
- But I’d still be lying because it happened.
- Yes.
- But I can’t leave you thinking about yourself when I’m with other people.
I need you? I still can’t answer this question, and I can’t feel that I need you or that when we’re together, I feel like the happiest person in the universe.
No, that’s not what’s going on. But I keep telling the truth when every memory comes back to me, when I think a call can be yours, or that I remember your beautiful smile and your sweet look every time you looked at me.
Because when I kiss other lips, does your smell still get me drunk, while I remember your gestures, your words and even your silences?
Nor do I lie when I say that you are and will be part of me forever, you form my essence because with you I have learned the best of life, this part where heaven and earth come together to enjoy the most beautiful that humanity can offer: eternal memory?
I wonder if our love, you and I, was true and it’s becoming clearer that it was never love, but yes, we were part of something wonderful.
Something that there are no words to describe and that only the brave dare to name, because as long as my feelings concern you, I would lie if I said that I don’t care, or that I didn’t ask thousands of stars what would have happened between us if it weren’t for me, or maybe for you.
Because I would also hide my eternal emotions for you if I said that every night I did not remember your warm kisses and caresses in my hair, which erased its infinite number of times to try to forget it and turn the page.
But none of this works because, although I don’t want to, I remember everything that has to do with your world, which was once ours, and your heart.
I would tell the truth if I said that the problem in my life, in everything that has to do with you, is that it is okay ?, this happens and it is real because love is built every day, with moments like these that last for years and because the hottest emotions emerge, bringing truth and consequence to my reality.
It is true that my feelings, as you can feel, do not clear up because they fade away, but as shooting stars, they return. Full of doubts, and even high expectations have been placed on loving illusions.
It’s all my immaturity and lack of experience, not knowing what I wanted, not knowing how to love and even not worthy of it as you deserve. But what is true, and what I have seen with you in my eternity, is each of my tears. poured out by your heart.
I would never have lied to you if I had told you that on every eternal night, my soul remembers everything I once lost because of my incomplete being, but I can’t help feeling that I love you, not that I love you. Because to love is to give in, and to want is to desire the other heart that is still far away.